I hate to lie to my children. But sometimes there is no other choice.
"I will miss them so much, Mommy. But if it's better for them to be out there, then I guess we need to let them go. I don't want Joe to die," she said, chin quivering.
We said a prayer to G-d to watch over them. She told them she loved them. And then we went outside and I let her spoon them out under a bush in our backyard.