As Kefirot described, it is disconcerting to see an accused sexual predator attending your shul. It is disconcerting to know that someone you held in high esteem and had a close relationship with is accused of horrible acts. I hope the allegations are false, but merely the accusation makes it impossible for me to think of a person in quite the same way again. I am human. More than ever, I feel as if I have to navigate the turbulent waters of life on my own.